Everything's changing...

Everything is changing
People are changing
I am changing

I think I am turning into someone new...
Don't know when did it exactly happens
but I just realized Im not the same old me

is it a better me or not?
I don't know
but I heard some feedbacks
even from my parents,
and it seems that they've seen those changes

well, I am changing
but I just realized that by today...
That everything surround me has change
Everything I do is changing
so I am changing as well...

it better be good,
but if it's not
I should make it good *_*

a perfect life

I once had a perfect life,
at least now I realize that it was perfect :)

but it's so true that sometimes in life, you just take things for granted
and you don't know what you got till it's gone

I had a wonderful life,
not that my life at the present is not wonderful.
but sometimes, I feel that the past is always lovely.
cos the pain is not so real anymore
and the memories left is just the sweetest ones...

All I can do now is to appreciate every second,
every minute, every hour, every day,
every moment in my life
for you may never pass this way again
(ever)

I want a vacation

I really need a vacation :) pengen ke Balii...tiketnya udah ada, buat bulan Oktober, tp akankah bisa digunakan? hmm gak tau jg sich... sayang jg ya, tiketnya udah dibeli dari 3 bulan lalu :( hiks.. trus kalo gak ke Bali kmn yah? ke pulau tidung kayanya seru... hehe..we'll see deh, mungkin baru bisa liburan 2 bulan lagi..

go to somewhere nice and peaceful, maybe with beloved family :)

I missss vacation ;)

2 months!

17 Mei 2010-17 Juli 2010

2 bulan sudah menjadi ODP trainee :)
Alhamdulillah,

latest news: semingguan ini Pulang Malem terus krn lagi sibuk ngerjain Project Management, so we spend the day and night in Kemang, from AM to *PM* (and probably next week untill AM again) =)

*Did u notice how many PM letters I use?

my friendster blog

Hehe,
I just did some searching @google and I found the link of my older blog in friendster

http://akuadeke.blog.friendster.com/

it made me smile, reading my posts :)
I was a lot more expressive those days! hehe

Hey, do you still remember that friendster era? no facebook yet, no twitter yet ;)
It feels like yesterday.

Love,

Adeke

I did not know when

I didn't remember when was the first time, I wrote
but now I realize how truly passionate I am in writing
I always said: I wanna be a writer
but dear my dear, I never truly *write*

But, here I am with my pretty little blog
Maybe you're not a book
not a script
not a novel
not a short story
but you are everything
as I am able to write about anything

I may not be a world's best-seller writer
I don't even write my own book (yet)
I am not a poet
I am not a novelist
but I am a writer,
no matter what..
I will always love writing :)

You are my dear

I'm wordless when I have to explain about you
Why do I love you?
How did it happen?
I don't know
I can't explain

All I know is that you are my dear
for we have spent so many times together
that you've been truly care
and I am in love

Sometimes I don't know
how to explain
but you are my dear
that's all I know

A Poet

I wanna be a poet
so I can write about anything, anywhere, and anyone
so I can cried all the tears, without any single tear
so I can break the rules, without breaking any

I wanna be a poet
so I can scream my deepest pain
heal my broken heart
sing my biggest dream

I wanna be a poet
so I can say I love you
or I miss you
even say I hate you
in many kinds of way

Not the simplest way
not the easiest way
not the clearest way

But, I wanna be a poet
so I can hold you through the night
with my words

I can touch your heart
and save mine

I may not be a poet
but, I wanna be one
for me, myself, and I

the best yet to come

I'm done thinking about you
But I guess it's never enough
Cos you have always been my deepest dream
the strongest desire
and the sweetest memories

God doesn't always give what you want
instead God always give what you need

When it comes between:
what you want vs what you need
I gave all to God's hand
cause I believe God must have the best plan for me
so, come what may
For the best yet to come

Eclipse

Hari rabu lalu, saya menonton Eclipse, bersama sahabat saya dari kecil yang juga tetangga saya, yang juga tempat curhat saya yang mungkin mengetahui hampir segalanya tentang sejarah hidup saya (halah)...

Senengnya nonton bareng sahabat saya itu, karena kami punya kemiripan sifat *mungkin* dan khayalan2 yang serupa..lhaa..hehe.. intinya sich, we both LOVE eclipse!!
It's just that, sometimes guys just don't like that kind of movie. Jadi kita senang, krn bisa heboh2 gak keruan pas nonton Eclipse! hehe

Bella..bella,
kalo dipikir2 beruntung juga dicintai dan dilindungi dua orang cowok yang rela berbuat apa aja buat dia. Tapi sebenernya, heran juga kenapa Bella selalu dikelilingi cowok aneh, pilihannya Vampire atau Manusia Serigala???!!! bukan pilihan yang mudah pastinya.. hehe
Tapi itulah, Edward dengan cintanya yang tulus dan abadi untuk Bella (super sabar meski ngeliat Bella sama Jacob agak2 mesra gtu). Dan Jacob, yang agak kePDan dan gangguin aja Edward ama Bella (dgn alasan yakin bisa bikin Bella jauh lebih bahagia... dengan jadi Mrs.Manusia Serigala gitu??? bener2 cowok yang aneh *sigh*)

Well, meskipun dengan keanehan dan keunikan kisah Eclipse, tapi memang kata2nya Stephenie Meyer (the author), truly touches heart. It's sweet, romantic and deep.
Mungkin juga Stephenie bener2 mengungkapkan jeritan hati atau impian terdalam seorang wanita: To be loved deeply and unconditionally :)

Dari sisi filmnya juga, lebih seru, more action, more shocking, more controversial lines & acts! So, two thumbs up for Eclipse!
Bella & Edward, kalian bener2 bikin iri.. !

horeee.. :)

horee..senangnya karena sabtu ini tanggal merah :)
Lho,kok bisa seneng sich? bukannya biasa aja?

Ya buat saya, libur di hari sabtu menjadi hal yang luar biasa sejak menjadi trainee di sebuah bank *milik pemerintah* hehe yang trainingnya senin-sabtu.
What? senin-sabtu, iya betul.. tp percayalah it's not as bad as you thought :)
saya senang kok, dan rasanya kalau sudah hari kamis..itu berarti satu minggu sudah mau berlalu dengan cepat.. rasanya waktu berlalu begitu kilat, dan tidak terasa 17 Juli nanti, saya sudah 2 bulan menjadi trainee :)

Wih wih, dulu waktu masih kerja senin-jumat, rasanya gak kebayang kalau sabtu harus masuk juga, tapi ternyata semua bisa dilalui koq, walaupun rasanya hari minggu berlalu sekejap mata.. tp nyatanya saya masi survive aja hehe..
Saya percaya semua itu ada pengorbanannya, sejauh ini saya bisa belajar banyak hal baru, dan mungkin hal-hal yang sebelumnya membuat kuping saya panas atau kepala pusing 7 keliling. Tapi ternyata, sekarang saya sudah mulai mendapatkan 'feel' nya hehe...

Masih sekitar 2,5 bulan lagi saya akan menjalani pendidikan, sebelum saya akan OJT di Jakarta. Selanjutnya? masih jadi misteri kemana saya akan penempatan :)
Sejauh ini, saya pasrah dan berdoa untuk yang terbaik saja =) walaupun kalo saya telaah, minat saya adalah di Human Capital, Service Quality Officer atau Customer Care. Tapi, sekarang juga masih proses belajar hal-hal baru, so still need much more knowledge and I hope whatever my position will be I will enjoy it :)

Nah..nah di hari sabtu yang Indah ini, saya menyempatkan diri untuk menulis kembali di Blog saya! saya bersyukur dapat kesempatan ini, walaupun saya harus memulai lagi dari awal, belajar hal baru, menapakkan langkah baru, tapi saya percaya ini adalah jalan terbaik yang Allah berikan untuk saya, oleh karena itu saya tidak boleh menyia-nyiakannya. :)

remember

tiba-tiba malam ini teringat seseorang
entah mengapa
mungkin saya sudah salah kepada dia,
tapi mungkin juga tidak...

hanya saja merasa tidak tenang
ketika banyak masalah saya bertanya-tanya
kepada siapa saya bersalah
mungkin saja ada hati yang pernah terluka
tp ingin minta maaf kepada siapa..

mohon maaf jika saya ada salah-salah kata, ucap, perbuatan, dan lain sebagainya..
ingin hati ini bersih, walau sulit.
ingin selalu berpikir positif dan hidup dengan tenang dan damai ;)

hope the same wishes for you too!